[ a tranquil calm laps at him in gentle waves, soothing over the tension and hesitance that comes from his begrudging relinquishment of control — because it is ultimately a relinquishment of control, no matter how slight. he doesn't enjoy the vulnerability of someone else not only influencing but sensing what he feels, so despite stephen's well-intended effort, a trace of displeasure and annoyance from him still taints the steadfast stream. it has less to do with strange than it does the bond itself.

something he should be familiar with coming from tony, given past experiences.

at the same time, the reciprocating current of relief, warmth and, perhaps, the barest hint of affection is undeniable. palpable.

matching his genuine delight is the slow grin spreading across his face as he glances between the blue hue emitting from their joined hands to eyes that no longer look at him as if he is nothing more than a stranger. it's really him. it's really stephen. the man who had somehow broken through his barriers and became someone dear to him.

his heart is thundering in his chest as something seems to crack within him. the reality of all those months of trying to keep himself together has caught up to him in a single moment. his hand slips from stephen's palm as he drops down to an abrupt crouch. he almost seems to curl in on himself, eyes shut and fingers raking through his hair. exhale, inhale, exhale. atta boy, stark. one arm still cradling his head, he holds up his left hand reassuringly. ] Shit. This is embarrassing. Give me a sec, okay? I'm just really happy you're you and it's a little overwhelming. [ man, he hasn't felt this uncool in a while. ]